The Truth.

Since when are emotions things that you can just play with, like a new toy?

I'm sick of all this fighting. And I'm sick of all this drama.
I either just want to fix things or just end them once and for all. Because I really can't take much more of this back and forth stuff. I would much rather fix things, but lately it seems like no one cares enough to. So if thats the case and no one gives a shit then I'm just going to be done. Because I'm not going to make myself depressed all over again for people who really don't give a fuck.

Adam-

I'm sorry that you feel like I'd rather hang out with and talk to Joey instead of you and I'm sorry that you feel like you have to "one up Joey" and try so hard to get my attention. Me and him just got close after you left and wouldn't talk to me. I mean what did you want me to do? Sit around for those 3 months and just wait and cry? I literally would have gone insane. I don't know what to do Adam. I feel like I can't win here. I want to be best friends again and I want to hang out more and talk more and be like it used to be. But it seems like you really honestly could give a shit less if we are even friends. I mean if thats the case then please let me know.. Because I can just stop trying and I can leave you alone if thats really what you want. I'm just sick of always feeling like a burden to you, and I hate feeling like I don't matter. Do you have any idea how much that hurts me? Do you have any idea how much I cry because all I want is for us to be close again. I just want to matter to you as much as I used to. I get really really jealous when you find all these new people to talk to because I feel like I'm being replaced. And I get really jealous when you go up to Reese's because I feel left out, I feel like she's better then me.. I feel like you love and care about her a lot more then you do me... And it hurts my feelings so much...


Reese-

I'm hate arguing with you. I'm tired of it.
You like Thomas.. okay fine you like him, I understand. I'm done telling you to take a break from guys because I just want you to be happy. And if he's really what makes you happy then I accept, I approve. Not that you  needed my approval but I just thought I'd let you know that I approve and I'm done fighting against it. And I'm going to be honest I guess I'm just jealous of Thomas/Gilbe because all of a sudden your full attention is on him and then he goes to see you and now he's trying to come up every other weekend and he wants to move there. It's like, all of a sudden instead of you wanting me to come up, you want him and Adam to come up. And you tell me you miss me yet you never say hey, come see me. Its more like, Oh I miss you so much and I wish you were here, then 5 seconds later your talking about how your excited to see Adam and Gilbe cause they are coming to see you. Its basically like a huge slap in the face to me. It just makes me feel really unwanted by you. Like I'm being replaced...


I doubt you guys will ever read this but if you do there is the truth. Bottom line, I'm hurt and I want to stop all this arguing.